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Some would say I have an imagination. At least my parents did back when I was growing up. I would make up stories and act them out with my Barbie dolls and go into the woods behind my parents’ house and go on adventures taking me all over the world. Now my imagination runs wild every month. Since it is December, I’m dreaming about a Christmas wish coming true. The end of my two-week wait will be around Christmas, which means I’ll see the arrival of my not-so-lovely friend in red or maybe, just maybe, I’ll see those two pink lines. Now it seems pretty tame to hope for those two pink lines, but what if that dream goes a bit farther? See in my head, I picture coming down the stairs on Christmas morning with a pee stick in my hand to tell the Hubs that I have another present to give. Maybe I could sneak the positive pee stick in his stocking. Then should we tell my parents when they come over to eat? Oh the plans I make in my head. Every month I make a plan of how I would tell the Hubs we’re finally pregnant, and every month those plans don't come to fruition. Yes, it’s frustrating, but I can’t help myself. It’s like this compulsive thing I do. I think it’s because I can’t get the whole TTC and baby and being a mom and all that out of my head. Do you think it will lose its luster if we get pregnant through “help” like FTSP? Does having technical assistance make the discovery and revealing any less special? I don’t think it will, and I still hold out hope we can get pregnant naturally. At least I know that there is help out there. If our bodies fail us, that isn’t the end of it all. I just think it would be cool for the Hubs to not even expect it. He still doesn’t exactly know when we’re “trying” or what day in my cycle we are, which means he wouldn’t know when I was late or when I would be testing. That ignorance would allow me to surprise him with the news. If we use assistance, he’ll definitely know. How would I surprise him with the news then? I know that the big reveal is such a small thing, but it’s something I think about. The planner in me wants to make it special. One day. One day, I’ll get to go through with my plans. Comments (5)
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If I have to share my 2ww with anyone, I'd choose you!! When I saw from your @ on Twitter that this was your topic this week, I hussled over here. I have those exact same fantasies... except now mine are tainted with miscarriages. I worry so much about telling people too soon, because I worry about getting their hopes up even more than my own. If I do get that elusive BFP on Christmas morning, so I just discretely show the DH, or do I share with the family too... because if I did MC then wouldn't they need to know anyways? Great post! I'll be crossing my fingers for you :-) |
mathkiss
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... I will find out right around Christmas too! Here's hoping we have a trifecta of special Christmas presents!  |
Angel864
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... I'm in the same 2ww boat with you all. But at least I know that I didn't ovulate when I was supposed to, so I'm not expecting a BFP. If it happens it happens, but if not- it's not end of Christmas for me. Wishing the best for you & your hubby. Merry Christmas. |
sls909
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2ww I too will be hoping for the same thing at the same time as you ladies! I hope that it will be the best christmas gift ever for us all to find out this week. I wish you all the best. Everyone keeps telling me to relax and stop stressing it'll happen but every time I start my period I feel so defeated like a failure. It's starting to get me down I try to stay positive, but it's really starting to get to me, everywhere i go there are babies, or i turn on the t.v. and the baby story is on or someone is calling to tell me their pregnant. Trying to keep upbeat hope i can find some ladies to relate with here. I hope you all are pregnant right now as we speak and next week when i come back I hope to see that you all post positive pregnancy results! Merry Christmas!! |
catresa
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feel the same way I feel the same way as you..... I actually had an IUI right before cmas (2 weeks) and felt so optimistic and really thought this time it would be a positive result. unfortunately it didn't take and tooks days to get a hold on my feelings.... sometimes i just want to give up but then i remember my dream of holding my own child and tell myself don't give up yet. hang in there everyone!!!! |
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