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There is no news on our baby front at this time. I know that’s boring, but it’s true. We’re still going the all-natural route for now. That is if you don’t count the supplements and vitamins we’re taking. By natural I mean the two people fall in love and… kind of way. We figured since we are saving up for any sort of procedures that might be in our future, we wouldn’t give up on the old baby-making dance. Maybe we’ll get lucky, and one of those swimmers will find its way. I’m also trying not to get down by the whole thing. We’re creeping closer and closer to our two-year anniversary of trying to conceive. It’s hard not to let it get you down, but I’ve been down that path. I’ve gotten upset, and I’ve cried. It’s not fun. So in the meantime I’m trying to stay positive. I’m sure that as my mood swings with the month, my next post will be about how much everyone sucks, but for now, be happy with me. It’s the holidays, and while we don’t have a baby to share it with, we still have lots of friends and family that love and support us. Even as some of them find it pretty non-difficult to get pregnant, and they might not completely understand what we’re going through, they are still here for us. Sometimes what they say isn’t the most helpful thing (i.e. it’ll happen when it’s meant to happen, stop trying so much, yadda yadda yadda….BS). At least they care. See? My positivity is shining through. I do get down a bit when I see the (what seem like constant) announcements via Facebook and emails announcing pregnancy. My jealousy shines right through, and thank goodness I get to have a little exasperated sigh in the comfort of my own home. I’m just waiting for one of my guy work friends to announce that he and his wife are pregnant. At that point, I might not be able to hide my frustration and jealousy. It’s not that I’m not happy for any of these people. It’s just that it’s so non-chalant like, “oh yeah, we were just doing it one night, and ooops, look what happened.” It’s not that easy people! Okay, sorry, I’ll step away from that ledge now. It’s kind of hard to stay positive even in one post. Let’s move to the upcoming holiday. I really hoped and thought we would be pregnant by now, and I think it’s put a damper on my Christmas spirit that we’re not. We didn’t even put a tree up or hang lights on our house. I’m going to say it’s because there wasn’t a lot of time. Every weekend we had stuff going on, and if we weren’t busy with parties, it was raining. Putting up the tree just seemed kind of like a hassle since it’s just the Hubs and me hanging out. Granted my parents are coming over Christmas Day, but I don’t think they’ll mind. I did put out all the other decorations like the nativity, various plates and all of the stuffed Rudolph toys that the Hubs so loves. When I told someone about how we didn’t put out a lot of decorations, they replied with, “Well, that’ll change when you have kids.” Granted, he didn’t know about our struggle, but it made me really think about how this whole situation has changed me and how it has affected me. Do I not get as excited about things because I don’t have a baby? Will I get more excited about Christmas when I actually get to play Santa? Will I be that different of a person when I do? I know having a child changes you. I’ve seen it in my sister and my friends, and I’ve read about other’s stories in blogs and on Twitter. I’m ready for it. So on to a new year and new hope. Comments (5)
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... You are right on point. That is EXACTLY how I feel at this very moment. I was hoping for a BFP this Christmas, but it didn't work out the way I expected. I'm learning more & more the real meaning of Christmas is not about wanting what you don't have, but loving what is yours at the present moment. Seasons greetings to you & your family. |
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... I'm sorry Angel864 that you didn't get your Christmas wish. I don't believe I will be either, but yes, I completely agree with your comment. Remember what I do have is what gets me through it. Happy Holidays everyone! |
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... My husband and I feel the same way this Christmas..all of our siblings have kiddos that are older now and Christmas just has lost its sparkle for us. We hung stockings for the 4 legged furry children and that was about it. We recently moved and we didn't even make it back home to visit family. I am trying to find new strength and faith for the upcoming year and finding this website has restored my energy. Thanks for sharing! |
E&A
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Wishing Hi, My husband and I have been married for six months now and we have been trying to get pregnant too. I know what you are going through too. I am hoping we do, I will find out in two weeks...God willing a miricle will happen..thank you for your postings and this website.. |
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