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Written by Vanessa
Wednesday, 27 January 2010 12:24 |
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I just got back from a few days in Minnesota with my in-laws. If you have been following along, you know that my sister-in-law recently had her third child, a beautiful little girl. We didn’t visit at the holidays, so I was able to postpone dealing with my feelings until this weekend.
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Written by Vanessa
Tuesday, 12 January 2010 09:49 |
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This past weekend I spent 48 hours in silence—well, almost. I signed up for a women’s retreat titled, “Making Friends With Time.”
I had a lot of interesting responses when I told people I was going. “Make sure you still like men when you come back.” “Be careful you don’t get brainwashed.” I will admit this a very “crunchy” thing for me to do, and it is off the grid of normal activities for most people. Yet, it is unfortunate that apparently we don’t value contemplation time.
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Written by Vanessa
Monday, 04 January 2010 11:05 |
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Sorry for the long absence, but I stuck fairly true to my words and took a much needed break from “conceiving” over the holidays. I have to say it was really nice to just be me for awhile, even if it was a little unhealthy at times [plenty of all the tasty and bad for you things].
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Written by Vanessa
Friday, 11 December 2009 11:03 |
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Today is the first day since our BFN that I have given in to the self-pity. It’s been almost two weeks and I had been holding my own, then the e-mail came.
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Written by Vanessa
Monday, 30 November 2009 10:31 |
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I am pre-writing my blog. I haven’t received my official results from the lab, but I am 98% confident that I know what they are going to be: BFN. I cheated again. I took a cheap test and an expensive home digital this week—the digital ones are awful in that they blare the words “NOT PREGNANT” right at you.
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Written by Vanessa
Monday, 23 November 2009 10:03 |
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Five more days and the suspense is over with. The 2WW [Two Week Wait] is never fun, whether you are trying to conceive naturally or with a little help. However, the 2WW on an IVF cycle is just torture. As my friend Melissa puts it, you are “pregnant until proven otherwise.” I keep trying to hold on to that thought. IVF is the one time you absolutely know that something happened and that there is a chance that you could finally conceive—and your dreams would be met.
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Written by Vanessa
Tuesday, 17 November 2009 14:27 |
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Jumping over the moon, I think that is what I said I’d be doing if they transferred three embryos. Well, no jumping today because that goes against doctor’s orders, but our IVF gamble continues to yield good results.
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Written by Vanessa
Friday, 13 November 2009 10:09 |
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As you read this blog today, I will hopefully be sound asleep with six eggs being extracted from my inners. It has definitely been a rollercoaster ride over the last two weeks.
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Written by Vanessa
Friday, 06 November 2009 11:50 |
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The rollercoaster ride continues. This time we are simply coasting on a moderate turn, waiting to see if we are going up or heading down.
I had my ultrasound yesterday, and there was some good news to be had. Quietly emerging from the woodwork were a few more follicles. Total count now is up to 6, which is exactly where I would expect to be. To be clear, there are many clinics out there whom would not be happy with 6 and would cancel a cycle.
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Written by Vanessa
Monday, 02 November 2009 14:04 |
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I always liken the IVF cycle to a rollercoaster ride, and today I am on that terrifying 200-foot drop and wondering what was I thinking getting on the ride.
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Clay and I were married in March 2007 and I quickly threw out the birth control pills soon after. Six months later during my 40th birthday celebration I found myself pregnant naturally, only to miscarry at 10 weeks. Almost three years later, we are still trying for the golden egg as I don’t believe 40 is an expiration date. Follow my story here as well as on my own site at www.ttcnow.com. 
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