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Written by Vanessa
Thursday, 04 March 2010 14:19 |
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| When I was diagnosed with ‘bad eggs,’ there were very few places that I could get help. There are only a limited number of doctors, even in the SF Bay Area, who are willing to work with more challenging patients. Now that I am going to be starting over with some fresh new eggs, it is time again to evaluate clinics.
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Written by Vanessa
Thursday, 25 February 2010 10:39 |
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| Now that I am officially on the path to getting pregnant, I have to start taking my own health and nutrition seriously. Over the last couple of years I have tried to eat and drink all the right foods, but I could never stick with it.
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Written by Vanessa
Wednesday, 17 February 2010 11:36 |
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| No one ever starts out with the idea that Plan B is going to be their Plan A. The time has come to officially make Plan B, our Plan A—or what I am affectionately going to call Plan EE. You see, EE stands for Expired Eggs—nope erase that, Exceptional Eggs.
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Written by Vanessa
Thursday, 11 February 2010 12:08 |
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| If you have been following along, you know that I am at the crossroads in my fertility journey. Plan A hasn’t been working, and it’s time to go to Plan B. What does Plan B look like? That’s the big question. I don’t think I can tell you what it is yet. And, I’m not sure if I’m going to.
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Written by Vanessa
Wednesday, 27 January 2010 12:24 |
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I just got back from a few days in Minnesota with my in-laws. If you have been following along, you know that my sister-in-law recently had her third child, a beautiful little girl. We didn’t visit at the holidays, so I was able to postpone dealing with my feelings until this weekend.
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Written by Vanessa
Tuesday, 12 January 2010 09:49 |
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This past weekend I spent 48 hours in silence—well, almost. I signed up for a women’s retreat titled, “Making Friends With Time.”
I had a lot of interesting responses when I told people I was going. “Make sure you still like men when you come back.” “Be careful you don’t get brainwashed.” I will admit this a very “crunchy” thing for me to do, and it is off the grid of normal activities for most people. Yet, it is unfortunate that apparently we don’t value contemplation time.
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Written by Vanessa
Monday, 04 January 2010 11:05 |
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Sorry for the long absence, but I stuck fairly true to my words and took a much needed break from “conceiving” over the holidays. I have to say it was really nice to just be me for awhile, even if it was a little unhealthy at times [plenty of all the tasty and bad for you things].
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Written by Vanessa
Friday, 11 December 2009 11:03 |
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Today is the first day since our BFN that I have given in to the self-pity. It’s been almost two weeks and I had been holding my own, then the e-mail came.
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Written by Vanessa
Monday, 30 November 2009 10:31 |
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I am pre-writing my blog. I haven’t received my official results from the lab, but I am 98% confident that I know what they are going to be: BFN. I cheated again. I took a cheap test and an expensive home digital this week—the digital ones are awful in that they blare the words “NOT PREGNANT” right at you.
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Written by Vanessa
Monday, 23 November 2009 10:03 |
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Five more days and the suspense is over with. The 2WW [Two Week Wait] is never fun, whether you are trying to conceive naturally or with a little help. However, the 2WW on an IVF cycle is just torture. As my friend Melissa puts it, you are “pregnant until proven otherwise.” I keep trying to hold on to that thought. IVF is the one time you absolutely know that something happened and that there is a chance that you could finally conceive—and your dreams would be met.
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Clay and I were married in March 2007 and I quickly threw out the birth control pills soon after. Six months later during my 40th birthday celebration I found myself pregnant naturally, only to miscarry at 10 weeks. Almost three years later, we are still trying for the golden egg as I don’t believe 40 is an expiration date. Follow my story here as well as on my own site at www.ttcnow.com. 
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