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I want kids—always have. And now that I’ve got four years of marriage, a college degree, and a developing career under my belt, I’m feeling like my time is now. The thing is—I’m only 23. While that’s not a bad age to become a mother, others argue I have so much time—“Why rush it?” They ask me. Maybe because it’s what I want. Maybe because it’s what my heart is telling me I’m here on this world for. Or perhaps it’s because I feel family is what’s most important in life—And what’s keeping me from expanding mine? I do have my lists—My “baby bucket lists” I call them. Things to keep me occupied while I play the waiting game… While I have my internal debates regarding whether or not I’m ready to take this leap into parenting. Of course this is all assuming that I can plan my life to a tee—That I’ll just get pregnant when I want without a problem. I’ve read enough books and blogs to know it’s not that easy for everyone. Sometimes it seems that way for people. It feels as though most of my friends have had the “oops” incidents. It has always sort of bugged me that people could and did get pregnant so easy. It’s not that I’m not happy for them. It’s just that I know there are people out there actually trying to achieve that but can’t. Meanwhile Fertile Myrtles are popping them out like rabbits, unintentionally rubbing it in their faces. I’ve been on all types of birth control during my marriage, most recently I had the Mirena IUD. I had it removed in May knowing that I’m getting closer to wanting to start trying to conceive. I’ve heard women can get pregnant right away, after having it removed, but that it could also take up to a year for the side effects to wear off. Choosing the “worst case” scenario, I opted to remove it early, and take a non-hormonal approach to birth control for the remainder of my pre-TTC phase. My goal to start the trying to conceive phases is now set for August or September. I’ve been tracking my basal body temperature since May, and my cycles are getting back to normal. As far as I know I am ovulating and I think everything should be working ok. I think my biggest problem will be the stress of it all. I have a strong anxiety when it comes to achieving pregnancy and I know that can hinder a positive result. I’m hoping to start a yoga class beforehand to help with that. I still surprise myself with how much I know about my anatomy. After having my IUD removed I started reading Taking Charge of Your Fertility, and began studying all things about my cycle… My husband has even learned a thing or two. There are a few things we’re still trying to put in place before we try to make a baby. For one—My husband is trying to finish school. He should be done with his undergraduate in April, and we’re thinking conceiving any time after August should put us in a timetable of him being done with school. Obviously job promotions would be nice—But I figure those will come at some point in life, why put off what I really want for something that may or may not happen? Vacations—We’ve done. And I wouldn’t feel deprived if we didn’t have a spontaneous trip to Europe before having a child. Basically I’m just trying to get my system right. I’m taking prenatals and trying to commit to a light exercise routine. I’ve been to the doctor and I’m researching a lot of pregnancy and motherhood topics, and connecting with a lot of women who have crossed the road I soon will cross too. It’s new and unfamiliar road, but one I’m sure will be full of many adventures and memories, laughter and tears… It’ll be a journey with ups and downs, I’m sure. But a beautiful journey I’m excited to begin. |
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